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[08 Apr 2004|02:42pm] I'm out of here. breathe_bullets is not who I am. I've been uncomfortable with the name for a while so I finally decided to do something about it _manufactured follow me? 3 will detonate the bomb or watch the world explode

post anonymously [07 Apr 2004|01:14pm] I want to know what you're afraid of. Everybody. Post anonymously please, tell me all of your fears, your greatest fear, whatever. I won't check I.P.s I just want to know what everybody is so afraid of. 13 will detonate the bomb or watch the world explode

[05 Apr 2004|08:53pm] I start an internship tomorrow. It was involuntary. I have no people skills. My friend Lynn is gorgeous. She used to be my best friend. We don't talk much anymore. She is a musical genius. She's been recommended for a huge orchestra thing. I cried when I found out. I'm so proud. I ate Wendy's today. I had a managers meeting. I hate my job. Social work class made me scared of growing old. It also made me realize that there is only one person I'd like to grow old with. I don't want to live an unhappy life. Jordan hates this song. I think it's genius. ( LYRICS ) 8 will detonate the bomb or watch the world explode

I'm so fucking stupid [04 Apr 2004|07:11pm] I'm letting my insecurities ruin the best thing I've ever had watch the world explode

[03 Apr 2004|12:30am] It's really cold I'm in love I FOUND A FILL-IN-THE-BLANK COMMUNITY[!!] go here: __fill_me__ that's all watch the world explode

Do you remember when you loved me? Or is it all just fading, because I can't be a perfect anything [01 Apr 2004|07:15pm] My hand is fishing through a bag of peanut butter m&m's and all I want to do right now if have a huge pity party. I'm feeling a bit down. ( Invitation to my pity party, only come if you're bringing balloons ) 7 will detonate the bomb or watch the world explode

[31 Mar 2004|01:40pm] ( I didn't want to write an entry, so instead I took a quiz ) watch the world explode

I'm scared to let you mean this much to me [29 Mar 2004|02:41am] [ mood | contemplative ] ( So, I had a really good day ) Yaay for good days after long periods of blahness. I'm officially a happy person 3 will detonate the bomb or watch the world explode

hope this works [27 Mar 2004|10:44pm] I spent all day talking to Jordan. And I don't find it at all pathetic that my daily happiness depends mostly on this: ( I'm sure there are reasons for everything that happens, and absence leads to adoration ) 22 will detonate the bomb or watch the world explode

sing like you think no one is listening [26 Mar 2004|02:05pm] [ mood | listless ] I'm drinking a cup of coffee with a full 3/4 cup of sugar and it's making me feel okay. Today was my last day of classes for an entire week. It's going to go by so quickly. I just want it to be Tuesday, so I can go and visit the boy that I am in love with on his birthday. For some reason the world seems a million times more beautiful when I have the house all to myself. I like this silence that remains uninterrupted by the mere fact that no one else is in the house. Sometimes I can be a little arrogant, but only because I catch onto things quicker than others. Though if you had a conversation with me, you'd never expect it. I can't do very much coherent today. I aplogize. watch the world explode

New template [25 Mar 2004|08:42pm] [ mood | recumbent ] I ate cinnamon toast flavored poptarts for dinner tonight at philosophy class. I still have a paper to write for my social work class that is due early tomorrow. I still should study for my spanish test, as the only way I'll get an A- in the class is if I get a perfect score on it. ( A conversation between my stepmother and I ) So, in other news, I am enamored by a certain boy, and it's going to be his birthday, and I am breaking out mapquest so that I can go see him. OMG, this is too awesome. 2 will detonate the bomb or watch the world explode

[24 Mar 2004|11:39am] I woke up to a voice on my phone that makes me insanely happy. I slept an extra hour afterwards than what I was supposed to. Oh well. I'm so exhausted and tired and I think I deserved an extra hour of out-of-it-ness. New word. I need a good week of unconsciousness. Serious. My body could use a week to catch up on all the things it needs to do, but can't as I am stressed out about.. well, everything. I love a boy. A lot. It's crazy and scary but it feels right. I wish I had the guts to go more into depth about this. But I'd rather not. I get to go to my first managers meeting today. W00t! love. love. love. love. love. It's so odd to say it and not doubt it. 1 will detonate the bomb or watch the world explode

bragging rights. [23 Mar 2004|11:51am] ( I just needed to brag, really ) Anyone want to see if this test was accurate? 2 will detonate the bomb or watch the world explode

... [23 Mar 2004|12:09am] I always get screwed over. And by always I mean one hundred and five percent of the time. I'm tired of living in this house. With this "family" With "parents" who admit to not caring about me. I think I'm getting really burned out. I think that I am going to give up. Plain and simple as that. watch the world explode

My little minion [21 Mar 2004|09:08pm] I didn't used to believe in soulmates Or falling in love But you've changed all that 2 will detonate the bomb or watch the world explode

Sing me something soft. [20 Mar 2004|01:41am] I ate at IHOP tonight. I had five (5) chocolate chip pancakes. Ohmygosh, they were delicious. The German foreign exchange student cried and said she'd miss me when she moves back to Germany in 3 months. She said that none of her friends in Germany were as fun as me. So then I started to cry. Yeah. I'm not that fun. I'm just weird. I wish I wasn't so fucking in love with a boy that lives so far away. I wish I weren't getting jealous over insignificant things, as it isn't my place to be. I wish that he wasn't so amazing and incredible and perfect and smart and funny and nice and uberhot. I wish I didn't accidentally refer to him as my boyfriend in my head, multiple times. watch the world explode

I like clever boys [17 Mar 2004|11:23pm] ME: I'm so fucking weird JORDAN: I'm changing my name to weird Tomorrow I'm going to an extremely difficult forensics tournament. And if I don't make it to semis, Jordan won't be there for me to make out with in the school basement. Ohwell. ( secret ) 1 will detonate the bomb or watch the world explode

Who wants to commit mass suicide with me? [17 Mar 2004|11:17pm] I'm just exhausted of life is all. 1 will detonate the bomb or watch the world explode

he wrote me cliche poetry and called it cliche himself. yeah. [16 Mar 2004|06:27pm] BOY: You know what would be sooo cool? ME: What? BOY: If we could grow old together. And what am I to make out of this? 1 will detonate the bomb or watch the world explode

But what does it all mean? [14 Mar 2004|12:09am] I snuck off with the boy I'm in love with and we made out in the basement of the school during a tournament. He brought me a can of whoopass energy drink, and I brought him a CD I burned and painted for him and a Hershey's Symphony bar. Yaay for makeout sessions and being in love. Boo for 156.46 miles. 11 will detonate the bomb or watch the world explode

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